I just wanted to say “Hi” to anyone who is visiting here from Gertie’s Blog for Better Sewing. I’m so excited to have won the giveway, and I’ll be certain to share pictures of hairstyles that I create with the help of Vintage Hairstyling. This may be just the push that I need to really get this blog going. Welcome!
My apologies for taking so long to start up this blog (I’m not sure who I’m apologizing right now since I have no readers, but no matter). I keep starting posts and not finishing them, finishing posts and not publishing them, etc, etc, etc. I realized today something that’s blocking me. I desire authenticity above much else in my life. I long to be authentic and to surround myself with others who are seeking authenticity. I discovered this morning that most of the dissatisfaction I have with my relationships, even the close ones, stems from this longing. I tend to sense a block between myself and other people when I find that they are not being fully authentic. Of course, that’s being a bit harsh, because most of the times their inauthenticity has nothing to do with keeping me at arms distance, but rather a self-preservation method that they use with everyone. Some people are used to living that way and are completely comfortable with it. I am not one of those people.
But back to what that has to do with this blog.
In the posts that I began or even just brain-stormed, I was trying to find a way to present myself so that I would attract a certain type of reader. I felt like I was going to my first day in highschool and was trying to figure out how to get the cool kids to like me. That didn’t sit with me (the inauthenticity), and so I never got started with this here blog.
Well, today I got over it.
I don’t care if I end up with no readers. I don’t care if I have readers who are nothing like what I expected. I started this blog because I have things to say- and I’m just going to go ahead and say them. Sometimes you have to do things that make you seem like a fool to the world, and if this happens to be one of those things, than so be it.